Healing from Addiction
Regardless of how one gets into addiction, the important thing is: how do I get out of it? Until one has an intense desire to be free from addiction one will remain captive. At that point one becomes willing to reach out for help. Consider the example of my friend who shared his experience with me. "I began drinking at age 12, and by thirteen I had become an everyday drinker. I thought I had the worse home life that a person could have. There was physical abuse and along with this comes emotional abuse. I did not have anyone to turn to for help. I didn't know a darn thing about God. I was 22 years old before I set foot in a church. That was the day I buried my dad. I pursued my party lifestyle after that. I was in a church a few times before I buried my mom. That was in 1987. I really hit bottom the next year consuming large quantities of alcohol and drugs. At the lowest point of my life I was consuming two fifths of vodka a day and snorting what we called an 8 ball or more of cocaine a day. To support my habit, I spent every bit of an inheritance my mother left me. I made drugs the top priority of my life and allowed my family to go without things so I could support my drug habit. I thought it was under control. From outward appearances I was a successful professional. I thought I had it all together. I was working everyday, and in my own eyes functioning well. I believed I had the habit hidden from my wife. One weekend she found some drugs and I told her that it was a weekend thing and she "seemed" to believe me, but I could not hide the fits of rage, I could not hide the paranoia, I could not hide all the effects that go with drug abuse. I became aggravated when she would not drink with me. On September 17, 1988, I was seriously considering suicide. I had thought about suicide ever since I was a teenager. On this day, I was in the basement and my wife and two children were upstairs. I had a gun in my mouth. I simply said, "God, I don't know you. I don't know anything about you. I don't know if you are real. I know I can't go on like this. If you are there, save me, and if you are not, it doesn't matter. Suddenly I was overwhelmed by a warm flush that passed through my entire body. I put the gun down. At that point I realized that something had happened but I didn't know what. From that minute on, I have never consumed any alcohol or drugs. That was the beginning of my journey to Christ. I still didn't know Him. I didn't know He had anything to do with it. I sought traditional counseling trying to find out the typical psychological reasons why I might have ventured down that road. We talked about child abuse and that kind of thing. Just getting off drugs was only the beginning. My life was messed up even when I was sober. My life needed healing. There was a lot of self-examination that needed to be done. Five years ago some dear friends invited us to Western Hills Baptist Church and I really began my journey to find out who Christ is. Immediately this meant something to me. I didn't know how awesome God is and how relating to Him can change our lives. My journey is far from over. But our God is a great God. He loves us, He cares for us, and never gives up on us. Christ has been helping me put my life in order. I have an inner happiness that is related to Him. Because of His help I have been able to help others who have various kinds of addictions. I am involved in teaching a course for people who want to overcome addictions of any kind. It is called Celebrating Recovery." It has
been
said that there is a God shaped vacuum in the heart of every man and
nothing
else can fill that emptiness, not drugs, sex, alcohol, money, power,
food
or anything else man tries. Yet when God comes in, so does joy,
and
the junk goes out! Jesus said, "Happy are those whose
greatest desire is to do what God requires; God will satisfy them
fully!" (Mt. 5:6) When one has a personal
relationship
with Christ their life is transformed. The change is so
great
that they actually become a new person. "If anyone is in Christ,
he is a new creature; the old ways pass away, and everything becomes
new."
(2 Cor. 5:17) If you have just prayed and asked Christ to save you, remember that like my friend you have only taken the first step. Now you need to get to really know Christ and the life he has in store for you. Jesus, "is able to keep you from falling and to present you before his glorious presence without fault and with great joy" (Jude 24) For information
about
the study course Celebrating Recovery, check here Copyright 2006 |